I have spent the last 2 weeks trying to write this letter to you but I realized that the best way to do it is to tell you as it is, how I feel right now, in this moment. And what I am feeling strongly at this moment is gratitude.
I am grateful for all that I have today.
I am grateful for all that I’ve met in my life
I am grateful for all that I’ve experienced growing up
and I am grateful to have you as my mother because all of the above was only possible because you brought me into this world.
I know I was not always the best person in your life. I was an ungrateful child, always putting the blame on you and on our family, our culture, our country for all the pain that I went through.
But mom, today I want to tell you that I am grateful for all of that pain.
Because without all of that I won’t be who I am today.
And as I grow older, I am realizing how big of a role you play in my life, and how that acknowledgement have been helping me grow not just as a person but also in my career as an artist.
Your support and your openness towards what I do have been a huge motivation and strength for me and because of that I have promised to dedicate every single work I do to you, and to popo; because behind every strong woman, is another strong woman and I hope we will never stop growing together.
I know I am not the most present daughter, physically and sometimes emotionally, but please know that I will always try my best to be there as how you’ve always tried to be there for me, Zenna, Celine and Charmaine.
Thank you mom for being you, happy birthday and I love you.
17th November 2018